Gave up

The very next day i gave up. I could not take it anymore. The reasons -

1. I was told a big de-motivator to the team to the whole team (yeah was voted once the soul of the office)

2. I was told in front of my team who reports into me that I am no good at my job (what is better than that being fired from a canon and your family seeing it)

3. I am also told that I my maligning name (have I ever hurt an ant, if i see one, i walk past and not stamping on top of it.)

4. I am also told you need to take an approval from me, before giving work to the subordinates (some trust)

5. I am told that even before I start a relationship, i am screwing it up (yeah right, have not mastered the art by now)

6. Why does somebody or anybody talk to you as if you are being accused of bad work? Is it in the genetics or what? Mom told me once that dont even shout at the servant or order or command at them they are also human beings like us.

7. I also think that my subordinates have complained about me, saying that he is completely unhelpful, unsupportive. How can that be true? I have gone out of way to help them, probably it was not good enough.

8. All the people that I called my friends, my father, all of them were not worried about the decision, but what I would do next, since I have nothing in my plate. The only thing I want to do is go out for a trip, do odd jobs there - peon, teacher, anything for a month, let me live the life the hard way and then come back.

9. I was told that - my documents are not right, dont know how to talk to my clients, dont know how to talk to the key stake holders. (Yeah after one and half years working with, now my she realises)

Am I loaded with work, dont know if work means that you need to give in more after the office hours. Be nice to people that you hate the most. I am getting to hear all this from a person, who I have admired dearly, i took it as a challenge to work with, have tried to be with her even when she was going thru some difficult times, of course at work. Have gone ahead and supported her beyond my scope of work.

I think I just carrying to much emotional baggage about myself, asking for people to be sympathetic to my cause.